time has past so fast n now im changing to my 2nd job which is trade analysis at samudera company...
i really dunno it is wat i wan now as it can be say busy n hv lot things to learn..
although they hv told me to tak my time to learn the things but tk in myself i hv the spirit that i wan to learn them all at one shot n know everythings in a super short time so that i can do my job freely..
as there is a restructure in the dept which means trade & pricing combine as one which ppl there will need to learn jus one thgs whereas me need to learn 2 things at the same time..
hv to force myself to absorb as much as possible..

found ppl there is relaxing n didnt tak work quite seriouly..
jus do wat they need.. now my boss wan me to do some things that relate to marketing tasks which takes lot of time which i urgently need it..
thus i decide to hack care this task as i didnt quite know where to get the resources..
tk is enough for job story as jus found that hv been working for yrs although im work for jus 3 months plus..

now wat is my new plan?
of course to complete my studies with good grades n will get a high bright job after complete the studies & get all the benefits fm there..
den wat abt relationship?
i nv tk of that as found it to me is jus one more person has to share my time which i really lack of the precious time for myself..
although sometimes will tot of finding one but there always a motive behind it which dun tk the guys here/now can tak it unless they really hv a special feeling n understanding to me..

when will he be the one to me is jus leave it to yuan fen ba.. wont force myself to d things that hv to follow others...
of course if now i could really found the one, i will hold him forever till i hv no interest on him anymore..
really doubt how long my feelings will last to a guy.. no idea..

*note dunno wat im writing now as jus write; jus like eat not bcos of hunger jus time to eat..

jus found that i hv long time nv been writing the blog..
started work on the 29 may 2006 till now its has been the 5th weeks..
these few weeks r my bad bad month as i jus realise the working environment is so important to me & will affect the motivation of going for work...

work in a freight forwarder company as a shipping assistant..
although not really quite like it as hv to liase with ppl n most importantly is to mermoise all the things in the head which im not really good at it...
so started looking for another jobs after working for 1 day...
as time past, found that the style there really cant adapt n there is no challenges in my work..
i dun mind the job scope or ppl but strongly mind the working environment..
tk need to work similar environment as NOL or the Tax free companpy if nt i will definately cant stand in there for a second...

graduation day will be coming soon which is nex tuesday...
looking forward not for the friends but for the excuse to leave the company n relax..
wat i plan now is to look for a good environment job place n focus on my studies..
hv to find motivation to continue this life for 3yrs..
if nt will hv difficulties to continue these kind of life..

recently, hv the feeling of tireness to this world n life..
its so meaningless n hv no direction to go on..
im jus twenty n still hv a long way to move on..
dun really know the next step n wat will it be happening for the nex moment..
im still looking for the one who can bring enlightment to my rest of the life..
but hv the feeling will nv found the one n live alone with myself..

Wish: hv lot of money and go ard the world with the one

long time didnt write as i hv been working as data entry temp job at the Global Refund company...
can be said quite easy but the problem is the person who assigned me didnt teach and say properly that the same things i have to do 3 times....
total earn ard 228 bucks...

yesterday night went for my er bo's elder son wedding dinner...
went for the cocktail session drank only soft drinks with ice which u didnt taste any soft drinks lor...
this is the first who the xing nian is slim not fat de...
i was surprise that the time at time has passed quite fast as didnt find quite boring actually...
during the red wine session, i told them that what we are drinking it contain almost 20% of alchol but one of my uncle say: no la, at most only 10 sumthing...
then my mum told me that my uncle has drink red wine for more 10 years le so wont be wrong...
but i dont believe as i remember vanvan told me that during chinese new year she drank the red wine which contain 52% of alchol and during her aunt party she drink around 48%...
so my info is quite accurate..
tk what they drink is all cheap cheap kind de...

this afternoon, went for my driving practice..
the driving on the road is quite ok is just sometimes i not really alert...
the problem is the parking part...

yaya.. i got my driving license..
maybe that day there is some luck..
because i only got 50-50 guess the tester will give me the license..

yesterday went for my first day of work..
it is quite relax and easy task which i think those things that she given wouldnt take me one week to finish it...
but i will try to drag till friday to complete it so that can heard more...

heard from laimum that she is looking for temp staff which i already send her my resume and tell her im interested and to have it after my this one week temp job completed...
but dont know will the company want me or not...
the university still hvnt reply me yet...
hai still have to wait for a long long time...

finally, tmorrow is my driving...
i have to say leave the result to fate ba..
heard from the instructor that sometimes we expect them to pass they fail, those expect fail they pass...
after hearing, i felt a bit of relief...
at least im know im not the one who so unlucky (have the skills but just lack of the luck)...
so i just take it as today practice which im feel comfortable and relax (maybe becasue of the instructor who look so cartoon and friendly)...

heard from oliver that he is rejected by the NTU maritime courses..
so what about me? think really no hope le unless there is some mircale ba...

Friday will be start work at Raffles city for a week or they extend after a week...
must depend on the company...
but anyway, i got some pocket money to spend... ;))

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Considering...
consider whether want to attend the driving practice and test...
i have just apply some of the temporary job online...
although i have to wait for almost 2 weeks for their reply but really scare it will crash with my driving...

ask myself i have confident with my driving?
i really doubt...
if say not really confident it seems not the truth...
if say im confident it seems not really...
maybe just because im not really familiar as compared to my first attempt...
so this time i have to imgaine in my mine that i am refreshing my memory of the driving skills...
but it cause me to have difficulty in sleeping...
has to really relax myself think keep thinking i am able to do it...
my skills not really that bad...
just always lack of some luck...

yesterday night i couldnt sleep well...
wake up one: bite by mosquitoe
wake up two: sound of the bird
wake up three: ringing of the phone
in the end and finally, i wake up at 0830...

recently, found that i really couldnt have a sweet sleep..
maybe because of the university reply, finding of the job and the coming driving test which held on the lask week of the month...
still considering wheather i want to go and take or not...
not really that confident as scare the result will be failed again...
already told myself not to think so much but it seems like opposite way...